Wishes that never came True

How i wish there was

- no running around...

No urge of being in two place at once...

No wanting the one that u love around that cannot be around...

Nobody i wanna make peace with.. 
Nobody i want back to life...

Nobody i wanna see happy...

No bonds that i am scared would break...

How is wish i had nothing to hold with in ...

How i wish i had it a lil easier than this..

How i wish i did not have to taste the happiness i did, to now feel the pain that's strolling the tears down...

How i wish i had people to understand me better...

How i wish my complexities weren't this small yet big...

How i wish i had a stone heart that would never fluid down emotions...

How i wish i did not love the ones that i do...

How i wish i had no bonds to bother...

How i wish i was a nobody in a no mans land...

How i wish i was just another random person to ppl that i now matter to or that matter to me...

How i wish i never had feelings or sensibilities...

How i wish i was happy all time...

How i wish i didnot feel so all the time...

How i wish i stay strong and not breakdown...

How i wish i had one to say its all okay and promise to stand through it all...

How i wish my soul was more plain, fine and cheerful...

How i wish i had no good times... how i wish i had no love to bother loosing...

How i wish i had noting that i have now so i wouldn't bother losing any!!

How i wish i were the lil girl that knew nothing...

How i wish i did not have to write this!!!