Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Metamorphosing !!!



Girls/women/ladies- as this transition happens- the more she turns out to be the butterfly- the more she is metamorphosing- there is something the world doesn't see of - that she is shutting away ... Loosing out... They might call it growing up... Maturing / adjusting / compromising or " being ACCOMMODATIVE" but what she is taking up unquestioningly is that hiding shunning and loosing... The world sees the lady... Polite,elegant,poise,reserved homely the MRS./ the-know-it-all mom or the Boss but what we hardly notice is the girl that had wild dreams is now run over , the identity altered... The loud fun and mirth toned down in to smiles and minimal talks...is that being mature and lady like??

Hoo yeah there is an alternative be the girl u were and be called the wild cat and some times even immature... hoo sorry there is a easy way to pick - if u are successful u are the wild cat...the strong one... The independent ; if not u never grew up only... But trust me nobody most of the time u- urself wouldn't question-what u ever wanted and what u have now was what u ever wanted... I know nobody- has the run down life,not in whole... But there are pieces of each of us that has been run down or given up by ambition /by society /by the people we prioritise or by our materialistic priorities and then one day when past visits us - the unassuming college yrs or frnds , then, those old dreams / wanted to dos and be s also visit and the comparison of the now and then wouldn't always be a happy thing u see...

Learning takes away a lot of raw knowledge and happiness... it teaches u the ways of world that's not always as fresh and raw but it's used, tampered, tested and old nothing like what u would have been - if let be ...

But then u stay to be u the core raw u. The unassuming free bird happy one... Hoo pls they cannot accept u that way... Cause it's not lady like u know !!

Initially u are born... And then taught ... In the process of learning and growing you are formed and u learn independence... living and start to free fly then u are weighed down by what they call norms culture custom relationships and responsibilities and duties... Now u metamorphose  and learn to unlearn a lot of things that contributed in making u and u believed in... Shun few, shut off a few, hide a few , forget some and grow up to be acceptable and successful... Now that's called growing up... And all goes rite - u are an achiever but those lil things that u wanted to do - then when U are big and capable are now shots of embarrassment or if u pick to do them- u see- u aren't mature or it's not too grown up like or u are risking it on whole...

But if u could just be what is expected of u... OMG BLING BLING u are just the best !!! All that everybody wants to be... But tell me who are u ? Is that what u wanted to be ?

Has anybody ever lived their life their way to the fullest 24/7

Y is it such a hard thing? No we aren't asking to take away somebodies lives... All we might ask for is to be me / be us not somebody else... Just live life the way the individual picks for itself... it's no violation of love nor any person or norm !!

Hope one day the world understands - inside every grown up stays a lil one that's much pure than the one u see and some day gets to cherish it !!! And the world hails a happy place !!!

PS: may be an irrelevant story to u but might be pretty relevant to few around 

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

DONT MAKE US HATE U !



WOMAN: stay home and cook, earn money and cook, take care of the house... whatever u do and may not do but as a woman u are supposed to cook, give birth and take care of the household chores. u have a extra star if u could earn and as well be the maid, care taker and the cook of the home and then

MAN: earn protect and rest !
If a Woman expects a man to cook its considered a crime cause u know " in the pre historic era man went hunting while woman cooked god damit !!!"

But it was the god damn pre historic era and not the 2014 where woman drive, fly along with men .. They compete and excel on par with men and they train men too!!! If not for this hell of a gender policing there would have been hell a lot of kiran bedies and u know being a kiran bedi or indira nooi or a malala wouldn't have been celebrated as they are just as good as any IPS, CEO and a Revolutionist!!! a person should be celebrated for their achievements in comparison to all humans not exceptional female gender! Dont u understand the discrimination right der!!!


Equality is not achieved when women are given 50 % reservation, its achieved when just not men but the typical woman (or thats what she is called) believe that if not for the y chromosome and the physical difference there is no god damn difference btw a man and a woman!!

We call it woman oppression! What if a man is raped and i swear its rare but truly not a "-not happening" scenario!!! A woman has a hymen and that's torn even when she jumps with legs apart , so if that break of it has been making her any more fragile than men and that's the reason she is restricted from the million things she could do as well as a man (this might sound brutal but i swear this would help her in the run) she could break it herself and be as strengthy as anybody else! A normal software engineer might not be as strong as "  SANJITHA  " weight lifter... one blow from her might slay even salman khan ! so now tell me on what basis should a female be more softer tender and more HOMELY than a male and y?
Isnt it a mans duty too- to be caring loving homely protective impulsive and happy? Isnt it also a womans nature to be protective, serious and earning?  where the hell dose this whole concept of "woman be tender than man and man be mightier then woman spring from?

How can the man be born in 2014 trained by a woman to make his living still believe "i am the hunter u are the cook? I am the provider u are the treasurer" and be accepted normal!!!

Is the society scared of a strong woman? Is it sacred of failing to sooth a man's ego by calling woman fragile and tender and so fail to balance the humanity because the woman has the potential to handle hurt so let her be oppressed while man doesn't and cannot  prove his strength when woman grows up to be equal... is it why she is being gender policed and restricted?
Isnt it proved already that a woman's mental and emotional strength is stronger than man and now i guess to call her less strengthy is her god given menstrual cycle and hormones that make the difference ! so to prove a man's or the god damn society's point of and hence men are stronger point ! why dont we turn out to be she male or sex transplants so equality achieved.... every born person as equal and capable as other if that at all is a barrier?
Then i wonder how would the lame man or the society that made him so sooth his ego???

How funny! in the name of menstrual cycle man or the society even can quote god as their proving point to say woman cannot be as mighty and powerful as men and get the hell away with it!!

But y don't they realize that woman are tender and gentle by choice and also cause they were tuned so but not by nature and "THE MIGHTY" man cannot stand the revolutions if all the right brains revolt together. And a man is also trained and tuned so to be emotionless or at least shield his emotion and not like pink and all the associated nonsense the proves him man enough !
What most of them or some of them dont understand is life is a choice and it has choices in everything. she can opt out of cooking and he can choose to be a chef and god damn gender has nothing to do with it. She can be a pilot and he can be a teacher and no! gender has nothing to do about it! She can do a god damn degree and opt out of engineering just cause she wants to and  He can quit engineering and learn classical dance and music because he wants to !  there is nothing great in being anything if u cant appreciate the other and unless the world learns it, it cannot be a happy place

 don't appreciate a girl by her skills of cooking, cleaning, caring, making a home , room, dressing and body but appreciate a human by their humanity!!! Stop the god damn discretion! MAN and WOMAN are no different the are as equal and necessary and strong and powerful as fire and water , wind and stone. Two kinds of   homo-sapience are so created because they can give birth and  nothingelse ! also they can choose to like the same sex and not give birth or whatever hell they want to do with their lives as long as they aren't causing trouble to another person wantedly!  Both of them are as weak and strong as each other! Either the world realizes this or we the woman be oppressed forever, even by the best of man!!!
 And its still stays her choice if she wants to cook or give birth or choose nothing or work and earn just 5 k per month so she can eat and happily sleep on road and not be scared about rapes and eve teasing and molestation or care a damn about it and slay the man that tries to do it to her cause she is as brave a human and strong as a god damn man and the asshole of a society need not pull her down!!! To hell with the world!!! Each of homo sapiens is created to help other not to discreet btw man and woman and then oppress her and make news out of it and lecture about man the mighty,  woman the sweet !!!

I still dont understand how any woman is different from a man if not physically. Dont we all know atleast one woman thats living without the help of a man! And yes there would be a millions of them if the bloody f of a society did not label them ! yes woman do need a man like she needS a hen and tree or a police and a doc... she needs him as another human being not because she cant do what he god damn does !

U know a man might not be able to do all that a woman can ! but a woman can do all that the man can ! cause she is the creator and the tutor!!!
A man or anybody that cannot understand that she too can hunt and "nala beema pakkam" best of cooks is a man called bheema from mahabaratha and not a woman and its not girly to cook and be soft and wear pink or like cream and not a tomboyish if she likes to ride and gym and race and street fight not cook and not give birth but u know its just about exposure and growing and choices that life offers!!!

P.S: DONT MAKES US HATE U (the man and society) ! LEARN THAT NOBODY IS NOT CAPABLE OF ANYTHHING AND EVERYBODY IS AS CAPABLE AS THE OTHER!!!  Man and Woman are just as same as the other if not for the appearance!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Wishes that never came True

How i wish there was
- no running around...
No urge of being in two place at once...
No wanting the one that u love around that cannot be around...
Nobody i wanna make peace with.. 
Nobody i want back to life...
Nobody i wanna see happy...
No bonds that i am scared would break...
How is wish i had nothing to hold with in ...
How i wish i had it a lil easier than this..
How i wish i did not have to taste the happiness i did, to now feel the pain that's strolling the tears down...
How i wish i had people to understand me better...
How i wish my complexities weren't this small yet big...
How i wish i had a stone heart that would never fluid down emotions...
How i wish i did not love the ones that i do...
How i wish i had no bonds to bother...
How i wish i was a nobody in a no mans land...
How i wish i was just another random person to ppl that i now matter to or that matter to me...
How i wish i never had feelings or sensibilities...
How i wish i was happy all time...
How i wish i didnot feel so all the time...
How i wish i stay strong and not breakdown...
How i wish i had one to say its all okay and promise to stand through it all...
How i wish my soul was more plain, fine and cheerful...
How i wish i had no good times... how i wish i had no love to bother loosing...
How i wish i had noting that i have now so i wouldn't bother losing any!!
How i wish i were the lil girl that knew nothing...
How i wish i did not have to write this!!!

Friday, December 13, 2013

WHAT I KNOW, YET I LOVE!!!

Wish to come true -
Strong men and vulnerability of love... this is what I like in the books that I love and movies and serials that I watch!!! Men that challenge and fall in love with the courage and rage of the woman yet covertly protect them! 
Most possible reality-
Now is that soo hard to find... May be that's what magic and miracle is about... The book secret says believe in miracle and magic it will happen!! May be cause I am so sure that it wouldn't happen to me cause I know I am worth more hardship than a life I love!!! 
Wild play of hope-
Who am I to decide what god has at his stake!!!
Determination!-
To live is what I love! Let the ball be thrown I sure know how to turn it into my play :)))
By -
Hopelessly deep in thoughts ever dreaming girl I know :))))

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

IN DREAMS AND REALITY.........



Love is all I have for you
 How can you not know that I love you
 You are the soul that quenches my hearts thirst
A smile you flaunt skips the beat of my heart
 The very being of you makes my world go round
 Your words are the sweetest song i heard
My lass you Knock me down with ur looks
 Hook me between dream, reality and beauty
 but then you walked off leaving me alone
 I wondered who u really were
 Wandered wild But all in vain
 no ways to u opened up
you inflicted that red hot pain Of love
 of love that I never thought would blossom
 you are now my angel that I would never see
 I can neither seek your love nor give u up
 but i know i should move on away from u.........
.........................................................................
oh god there u were then waiting for me
 To kiss me to say good morning
 beside me my love my sinful addiction,
my beloved wife
 The lil caress of urs is my blessing from god
 Here I am again singing this to myself to remind me of the angle my heart holds
 in dreams and reality
 Here I am singing this to let you know what u mean to my world
 This song is for you my lil girl

To u who marks my world of love

Sunday, March 24, 2013

I'm A WomEn



Call me a sensation
Call me a rock heart
Call me miracle


Give Me space
Give me love
Give me time to share


I deserve respect
I deserve freedom
I deserve the earth and the sky
I deserve a bow
I deserve a hug
I deserve the warmth not the wrath


I slog and I earn
I bare and I share
I fall and I fail
I learn and I master
I order and I demand
I strive and I thrive
I love and I care
I strain and I drain
I honour and I command
I cry and I kiss
I rust and I risk
I trust and I rest
I party and I pray
I stumble and I wobble
I fight and I fuss
I juggle and I judge
I hide and I sing
I dream and I live
I smile and I sweep u off ur feet


I have the patience to wait
I have the ferocity to rage
I have all means to set it straight
I have the hearts to heal
I have the shoulder to support
I have it all in me to make it roll 


I am A WomEn!!!


P:S THIS IS THE LYRICS OF MY MUSIC VD

TO WATCH IT FOLLOW THE LINK BELOW

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4d9qVq8vUY&feature=youtu.be

Thursday, May 3, 2012

it's "Just A" Life...



"life  is short... forgive quickly... laugh loudly... kiss slowly..."
                                         ___ anonymous ___

we change our homes, we change our schools, we change our destinies but who feels the change?? nobody but we... the rest of them, by third day wouldn't even remember we existed or do they? (yes, ofcourse they do when we call them, when they dont find anybody better or when we bump into them). Apparently, they are a part of our good old memories and reminiscence of our past. obvi all of us would have done something creepy and got caught at our growing ages and undoubtedly they were the most embarrassing moments then, we would have dreaded our self esteem the next moment,  fought very hard to face the world next day but aren't all of them "now" the by gone days?? didnt we get over them or atleast ppl forgot that or ppl involved in it then are no more around us or its just back in our memory storage room and we "NO MORE LIVE WITH THOSE STORIES IN OUR CONSCIOUS MEMORIES".

       The best part about anything in "a" life is that everything will be forgotten someday(we dont live with incidents but with ppl accidentally)...we could easily forget a person who coexisted a day or a week or a month ago and remembering what he did for an eternity is surly impossible ... It's that simple!!! Anything we do is like a news paper story ... the day u do it, its a headline. the next day second page story, after a week hardly heard, after a year, just a history ppl hardly remember it unless asked about. Every day priorities keep changing, circumstances, situations and above all "PEOPLE" themselves!!!  its just not mistakes that ppl forget but also the great things...  what is hard to believe is that bad is remembered longer than good(but remember- noting is remembered more than a decade) yeah a decade may be too long a time to think about now, but remembering when we were 15 and then when 20??  dont we really feel 15 and 20 are just consecutive numbers when it comes to age(it just flies man, we get old too soon but, u know the growth is too slow LOL!!!)
       Life is only complicated at the moment, right at that point... once the moment is gone, time is passed "WE ARE BAILED OUT!!!" Anything and everything in this life is "MOMENTARY"  no feeling can exist longer than a day (thats the max I would say) ... I believe all of us have these moments in life, we cry over something like hell but then the next moment some comedy scene on the t.v or some joke from a friend would pull a heartfelt laughter and we wonder how? but yes, both of it is us and as we live in a society that sympathizes ppl with tears but doesn't stand by the strong ones that are fighting against the odds, we might find it weird to laugh while in a mess but i would say life is short nobody remembers anything after a while, so live it ur way...      
       finally after all this crap what i am trying to put across is that, we grow out of moments and no single sec is/can be stalled in the run of time, so we move on and eventually more things occupy our minds so these stories of the then present fade out giving space for the present and as for others we are just characters in their play, its only the hero( i in my story... u in urs) that matters, the rest are just variables. There is nothing to regret nor to boast about ... this bloody world forgets everything after a while anyways!!!


P.S : u r the "ONLY" director, hero and of course the conscious audience of ur story so play by ur own rule book !!!