STRONG WOMEN THEY ARE…

                

      They are strong women… pretty much they are that, they don’t feel anything towards anybody, nothing at all towards anything… they just walk with their heads held too high they don’t see anything below it nor feel anything except the sky above them that holds nothing but emptiness…

      They don’t respond, react or stimulate nor retort because they are vexed and tired of them… there tears  no mere… smiles long lost… desires deep buried… its just their beating heart that’s now turned rock that keeps them on move, gains them an identity and make them acceptable and help the burry their  bruises  done by man, time and nature… It is this woman you call head strong, pig headed, heart less and swine…

    BUT  it is the same woman that live leading life with passion for themselves… with hope for better tomorrow where they would re-learn to smile… find a shoulder to lean on and cry … have the silliest of jokes to share with…  and a person to live for !!!

P.S:  Even they have feeling but just that they had enough and too much of them that they now are soo used to it and they don’t feel anything any more !!!

HOW LIL DID WE KNOW!!!

       We had dreams like the ones in the fairytale !!! we had full confidence in us that we will grow up and all that will be true!!! When we saw movies they were the ppl standing inside that big glass room and acting; u break the glass they will be out of it!!! and then back home wondering how did they fit into such a small box named t.v!!! Every time we lied about no homework or not having broken that piece at all, mama said god will punish u go wash ur mouth never lie again!!! When we asked how was I born, they answered u were gods gift unto us!!! And we smiled like prince and princess!!! We hardly remember the times we cried!!! Our birthdays were the worlds most important days and we used to await its arrival from the day next to our b’day!!! We had a problem, we were running towards mom or dad and they always promised everything will be alright and they always made sure everything was alright!!! The unbearable pain occurred was when we fell down on our knees and the skin got scraped!!! The problems we ever had were friends pinching us during class, not giving their “mender or rubber”  or not letting us play with their doll or riding our new cycle !! The biggest hurdle to cross was that sand heap on the road!!! We use to prepare so hard to recite that BIEEEEEG 4 line poem !!! we were the worlds greatest achievers when our class teacher put 4 stars on our homeworks or tests sheets!!! we used to watch that birthday girl walk from the teachers bench to our bench with that box full of colour colour chocolates and wish her more specially than others to get an EXTRA chocolate then go home and tell daddy that “girl at school liked me soo much and gave me an extra chocolate daddy”!! For thing we did not get we cry and then mummy or daddy will get them in the evening and we would celebrate with it the whole week!!! All we knew was everybody is lovable and good and all is well and happy J J J J

     How lil did we know!!! We never knew mom and dad will not be by our side all time!!! We never knew life was a  harder than lives in story books or movies!!! We never knew we would have problems that we cannot express to our parents!!! We never knew “vakth ke sath sath dhunuiya be bhadhal sakta hai”(along with the time the world also keeps changing)!!! We never knew words and deeds can hurt us more than physical injuries!! We never knew ki ppl will die !!! we never knew dreams are hard to achieve and sometimes we let dreams be dreams!!! We never knew there would be time we would not celebrate our b’days or forget them or try to IGNORE them!!! We never knew we would forget our then classmates names and shift somewhere else in respects of place time and situations!!! We never knew we would succumb to the reality!!! We never knew we would commit mistakes nor that mom or dad had something called tears !!! we never knew there would be times when things donot happen our way!!! We never knew there would be times our love will not be reciprocated, There would be times we hate the world because u r left ALONE with so many ppl around but that single person who makes it LIFE!!! We never knew that there was something called understanding, misunderstanding, soul, missing, cheating , trust, hostility, challenge, victory, failure, tomorrow, future, repute and pain !!!  If I would have known ALL this as a kid I would not have grown!!!

PS: Loving and accepting life as it comes, is no easy task but too big a challenge!!!

                       HURT AND HOPE

                               Love- its not about adjusting but about understanding!!!

                                      Hope- nothing but this makes living easier!!1

                                     Risk/trying out - only two choice gain or loss!!!

                   Everything in life hurts because expectations hurts… love hurts, caring hurts, aspirations hurt but what is life without dreams and wishes, they r what we call expectations!!!

               We r human beings not machines, that works for other and don’t expect anything back, But what makes the difference is not throwing away what hurts, without waiting but trying to pursue and  learn to wait with hope and see what comes to u…. maybe I am being an optimist but isn’t that giving me happiness??? maybe that happiness might fade out once my dreams wishes, and expectations don’t walk into reality… But Y throwing away things b4r they happen??? Y getting scared to face a failure without even trying for success…

                Waiting also hurts… like I said everything in life hurts but always, there is the other side for a coin…  If failure is one side. Hurt is one side, missing is one side, loosing is one side, then the other side has to be victory, win, reciprocation of love, care and what else ur dreams, wishes and expectations coming true!!! So  y stop dreaming, y stop wishing, y stop expecting,  y stopping the heart from reeling  in the beautiful world that u design fearing that the reality possible mighty be ghastly…. Maybe wishing and waiting hurts a lot and a lot of times but sometimes it might come true… what is life without a hope for better tomorrow, what is life without love and what is life without somebody else caring for u and loving u!!!

                   Try out everything, if not experiences what can teach u better so y fear a crash…. If ur trail leads u to disappointment this time then one or the other day ur persuasion towards victory will flip the coin to the other side for sure because when all the ways to distress are tried out, then the last left would  inevitably be triumph…. Give everything a try but in the right state of mind and thought… In life everything woks by the same rule -when u think with ur heart, only brain has diff ways to deal with diff things… not being poetic, but that’s true,  when u r happy even ur brain says it…. Everything and anything Has only two possibilities: happen or don’t happen but without trying nothing at all can happen… afraid of a letdown then  an achievement can never be gained!!

                 Everything is fair in love and war but not faking, not adjusting not the hidden and unexpressed pain, sorrow, wishes and fear!!! Love is all about being there for the other , accepting the imperfect, liking the difference  and correcting the wrong , being all that the other person needs by being urself!!  Love doesn't ask for sacrifices, it doesn’t ask for explanations its doesn’t ask u for anything that u don’t like … if its asks for something then its- need not love, yet it dose ask for something else… it always asks for “understanding without explanations, accepting without sacrifices and being there for the other  by being ourselves!!! It asks for the truth… Try being transparent, telling the other everything, expressing everything then the chances are only two - u grow to be the best for each other or understand the other!!!  Fear the pain then there is nothing called love nor accomplishment… so hope for the finest do not fear the pain try it out, RISK IT and see what u gain!!!

P . S : Donot know if this is making sense ,,,this is something I wrote  for myself and if it can make sense to then its also written for uJ J